I want to share my testimony because I feel a lot of people have been here and succeeded and others have failed but sharing this will hopefully shed light on anyone who needs that inspiration. As a wide eyes 18yr old I went off to college with the fairy tale of one day becoming a doctor, lawyer, or Indian chief. Not to say those are not attainable careers but they are the traditional careers that everyone automatically thinks of. Ok,ok maybe not the Indian chief but you get my point. I so wanted to do things the "Traditional Way" and that way of thinking only led me to years of confusion, frustration and wasted time. I fought with myself on what I wanted to do with my life which caused me to jump back and forth between degrees which was getting me absolutely no where. I was letting the ideals of others trap me in my own personal jail with no way of becoming free. Not until I woke up and decided that Courtney had to live for Courtney!
At the age of 25 I decided that I was going to take the plunge and go to school for what I was passionate about. That one decision has completely changed my entire life. It was a huge sacrifice and I can tell you that blood sweat and tears have been a constant thru my journey. I had many mixed emotions during my personal walk...was I good enough, do I have what it takes, can I survive and finish the course, will I be able to get a job? Yes, I am woman enough to admit that I have insecurities that I battle with and it doesn't mean that I am not confident it means that I AM HUMAN! Shit I have reservations about myself just like the next person! Coming into a creative field where everyone is driven off of creativity, innovation and individuality is not necessarily the easiest career to cope with. I am getting better at it more and more each day and realizing and accepting that you can only be the best version of you. That is all that is required or expected!
With the constant presentations, projects, work load I have made it to the finish line. I have to first thank my God for making the beautiful, talented, creative, loving, sincere woman I have become, and for designing such a beautiful destiny and purpose for my life. I could not be happier for what he has done and what he is going to do! I would like to thank my best friend Connie who has been there for the entire emotional rollercoaster I call my life. Thru the ups and downs, bitching and moaning, excitement and tears she has always been my rock and has always been there to encourage me to go just a little bit further. To the most brave, courageous, loving, kind mother any kid could ask for, you have truly been heaven sent. Not only did I get all of my creativity and innovation from you I also got your endless support, your approval, your ability to let me know that I was always good enough and the fact that you have been and will forever be my best friend that I can share my most vulnerable moments with. You are my #1 fan and God blessed me beyond measure by making you my mother...Thanks mama.
The tears are flowing I'm an emotional wreck these days but it has been one of those journeys that you have to express to the ones that took it with you that you couldn't have done it without them.
To my Hunni....where do I start.(tears flowing uncontrollably) MAN I just thank you for loving me unconditionally thru all the bullshit. You have been so gentle and kind loving and supporting me no matter how small the problem or how big the dilemma. You have shown me what true love is and you have loved me selflessly even when I could only love myself. You have sacrificed and waited patiently and I will always love you for that. To my love, Thanks!
To my Reebs...my shrimp dumpling you have been there with me thru think and thin, from watching the chaps to helping with projects, to being one of the main people to believe in me when I didn't believe in myself. As family you already had a special place in my heart but during this journey you won an even larger part of my heart that can never be filled by anyone but you. We have had so many great times together and you are the only one I can be my goofy self with. You are my shrimp dumpling, you are my ride or die! Reebs....we ride together, we die together...Bad Boys For Life!!!
To all my other friends and family you are all very much appreciated and you all helped in your very own way and I will always be grateful for your continued support!!!
My journey hasn't been easy but it has definitely been worth it. My trials have made me the woman that I am and I will always look back at these moments proudly because I was able to get out of my own way!
Lord I Thank You!!!
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